The Road To DJ

After losing RJ I was not mentally prepared for another baby, just the thought of something going wrong turned me completely off to the idea. But if I'm being honest I didn't do anything to prevent it from happening, so when I found out I was pregnant just 8months after I was a lowkey happy. Feeling like I needed a do over after losing RJ I really wanted this baby, but on my first prenatal visit my doctor couldn't find a heartbeat and my happiness was quickly replaced with sadness and anger.

We then decided that we were done with the baby business, we didn't want to go through that pain again. Fast forward 5 months later we had just moved into our new house and had so much going on trying to get adjusted and bam we're pregnant again! Anxiety and fear kicked in and then numbness. I just wanted to get to the sad part because I just knew this would end in sadness.

Because of my history my doctors quickly created a plan that included weekly hormone shots, and a cerclarge because at 16weeks my cervix was opening. Putting that stitch in was just like being in labor, the pain was crazy. But I would do it all over again to make sure my baby had a chance to grow and be healthy.

My entire pregnancy was a big ball of anxiety and stress, I couldn't enjoy being pregnant because I was so scared I was going to lose him. Depression kicked in and I felt alone all the time, the panic attacks were real! In the midst of the storm I felt like I prepared myself this time around from all the research, therapy sessions, and hospitals tours I was ready.

Then May 3rd came and I had to be induced, I was excited because that meant my baby was full term and we had made it! We checked in the hospital on Thursday May 2nd at 9pm , and at 6am on May 3rd my rainbow baby was born. A healthy 7pds and 17inches Damion Jaxson Aughtry was here and I couldn't have been more happier.
My angel on earth he was brought here to heal me.